Forward progress

Writing on here is becoming more and more difficult for several reasons. I'm busier with school (although that doesn't explain my 12 day break in Michigan where hung around each night playing on the computer and hanging with my brother), I'm becoming more a perfectionist when it comes to this blog and the longer I wait to post the more insurmountable the task of posting something worthwhile becomes, and finally, things are going well. I'm definitely making some forward progress... with life, that is.

In general, I'm feeling pretty good about how things are going. This progress probably shouldn't stop me from writing, but it kinda does. Things I think about tend to be fairly positive and when I think about trying to express them coherently, I'm afraid it will come across all sugarcoated and fairy-tale-dream like, and the idea itself will be lost in a sugary coma. Then all my good messages and life lessons (you know, like 'do unto others...' and 'you can only love another once you love yourself') might be considered unoriginal, mainstream, and perhaps fake. So until I find some hard core way to write all of that, those ideas just aren't getting posted. Sorry folks.

So if I can't post those thoughts, what should go on here? To answer this question, I went back to my first entry in this blog for help. Why the heck did I start writing this anyhow? The entry reads: In this blog, I hope to try to document these types of events and the impact they have on me, in hope of gaining more clarity and perspective in my life.

Thank you me from March 2008, I remember now. And even as I look back on my old posts I remember not only the events themselves but how it felt at that time in my life. The picture of the tree with changing leaves helps me recall the March 2008 me, and really feel and re-experience the confused, somewhat naive, younger me, which is pretty cool. Note: That is not to imply that being confused or naive is bad or that I am no longer naive or confused, but that's a topic for another day.

So the blog does serve its purpose, even if its only for myself. In effort to continue this forward progress, I pledge to continue to write and document, even if it isn't a profound and moving message. And perhaps through all of that, some sparkly and optimistic ones will slip in as well, so sue me.

In keeping with my idea back in March 2008 of posting a random picture that describes my thoughts, I head to google images. A picture is worth a thousand words, right? (ugh... cliché) After an extensive search of 'beautiful scenery,' 'mountains,' and related terms, I finally found a non-copyrighted picture to post here. I chose this mountainy one because I'm obsessed with mountains and these ones really do look peaceful, content, and thoughtful, all of which I am feeling right now. Luckily, all of these things (i.e., documented honesty about the candy-coated nature of some of my thoughts and my continued naiveté, pledge to continue to document, and even just looking at the above picture) are all good for my continued forward progress.