Hiatus Explanation

Writer's block is a very frustrating thing.

The fact that I haven't posted anything in over a week is potentially indicative of a few things:

1) I am simply too busy to sit at a computer and type;
2) My ever-present thoughts are not complete and therefore, lay stagnant, drafted and unfinished in my 'edit posts' section;
3) The complete thoughts that I do have I am hesitant to post, as I constantly struggle with what is appropriate and not appropriate to post on a public blog.

All of the above are reasons (to varying degrees) for this frustrating blockage (doesn't that word just make you think of some type of gross medical blockage? gross. me too but I couldn't think of a better word, hence, the purpose of this entire post).

So lets review them. I finished up my first year of graduate school on Monday and went to the Jersey Shore right afterwards, so lack of time was somewhat of a factor in this 'blog post hiatus.' However, there have been times when I've been even busier with schoolwork and other things, yet I would still find time to write, because I enjoyed the break it provided. Therefore, #1 can't account for too much...

In reality, I'm pretty sure the most influential reason for my lack of posting is a combination of reasons #2 and #3 above. That is, my inability to express what I want to express. And then, even if I can put it into words, my subsequent hesitation about whether expressing those thoughts are appropriate.

The thing that makes this so frustrating, is that writing has become a really big part of my life in the past few months and not being able to do it drives me crazy. Writing has become an outlet for emotions, a way of creative expression, a source of some clarity and a huge amount of reflection. I guess you could say its been somewhat of a port in the storm for me lately. Therefore, during times like this past week, when I am not able to take solace in this newfound hobby, I find myself extremely frustrated.

So, in an effort to re-claim my port in the storm, I am writing this post. I think any type of artistic expression, or maybe just anything at all, is at its best when it is honest. Thus, this post is my best attempt to be honest about my struggle, in hopes that it will spark additional creativity in the near future.

Given all of that, all I really have to say is this:

I am not sure what to say. Lately, finding the right words has been a constant struggle. And I'm not sure when that will change. But... I'll keep you posted.